well previously i saw last year 'O' level result and is badly done. everyone said that i am their hope. well i don't really like the sound of that because i never ever choose this path. someone choose it for me. well now i need to face it and do well in my exam. i am sad to said that i fail my common test badly and i am not happy with it."i know is too late for me to start revising my work but at least i put in some effort to study". know i need my parents to respect my study time. they seem to force me do things which i don't like. well like what people say "is for your own good hidayah". but do ever they think how i feel when they force me. well i have been keeping a lot of things from my friends and my family. you want to know why? because they don't know how i feel. they only know how to said i am irratating! nevermind. no one will understand my feelings. well forget about that. i am going to study hard.

ps:sorry ehk cik aishah. kalau aku nye post terlalu pendek untuk kau. haha. nanti biler aku free aku buat karangan kat sini. so kau tak boring. haha!

well my mid year exam is in one week time. need to study hard to get a DPA. even though it is hard to get it, i will try hard. everybody is like aim that DPA. arh! work harder! hmm today quite boring because my school is starting to be more bored. well need to concentrate more on my study. now i at ENCIK ZULHISHAM HOUSE. i am with esfan and the company. haha. i mean his friends. we are watching movies. now we still watching movie. most of the movie is a ghost story. haha. hmm tomorrow there maybe a third date. still on process and waiting for conformation. i will update you peeps what happen tomorrow.

OMG! i fell down just now. so embarrassing arh! i hurt both my arms and my right leg is injured badly.. pain! now i am scared that is will stink my wound. well that's what happen if i not careful about my surrounding. now i need to bear the pain. today post going to be short and sweet because i waiting for time to pass by. for this one whole week i need to eat my medicine at 10pm. sad huh? well if that going to make me feel better. i go to go kinda busy with school stuff.

i don't know why every monday i am sick. usually i can bear the sick but today i can not. the funny thing is that not only me sick. ENCIK MUHD SYAFIQ also sick. i think we get the disease together. haha. when my mum came to fetch me today at school. we saw syafiq parents. they start to talk. my mum send me to see the doctor. i got one day mc only. the doctor scold me cause i never meet him early. it is not serious but i can not live with this condition everytime. well it has been 1 week i never update cause i was busy with rehearsal for speech day. it turn out to be great. i have the wonderful time. we took alot of pictures. want to see it? more on facebook. i need my rest now. update you guys soon.

happy birthday to you. happy birthday to you. happy birthday to ms chen. happy birthday to you. me and my ex-classmates sing when we saw our favourite teacher MISS CHEN OR ALSO KNOWN AS MRS LIM. she teach me since i was sec 2 until sec 4. she is even my ex-form teacher. she is like a mother to me and my classmate. we are like her little children who still wants mummy attention. mummy when you want to have a baby? it has been 3 years we want to see you pregnant. haha. make sure you are pregnant before we sit for O level okey?

since someone complain to me that i always type short, i will type long enough until she/he want to stop reading it halve way. haha. just joking. well school as per normal expect for the celebration. i heard from aishah and syafiq that other teachers also celebrate miss chen birthday. cool. i like.after school i went back home. at 4pm i went back to school as i got rehearsal. it is freaking fun. the next rehearsal is on Sunday. i came a bit late as i got religious class. even though is a tiring day for me but at least i have fun. let's see what tomorrow install for me.

well today my school have sports day. it is really boring. the atmosphere was SUPER DUPER BORING. it is not like the back old years. i did not take part in any event. i just sat there and chat with my friends. after the sports day, i went under the block to play guitar. i still sux at it but people said practice makes prefect. now i have tonnes of homework to be done. and i think i am sick again. well better stop now and do my homework.

if i did not call you, does not mean i not thinking about you. if i do not reply back, does not mean i not listening to you.if i do not smile, does not mean i am not happy. if i keep myself away from you, does not mean i want to be far apart from you. if i do not said i love you or miss you, does not mean i do not love or miss you. is just that i respecting your decision.

OMG!my speech is in one week time and i haven prepare a thing. i am involve in acting and is in front of the whole old or ex teachers who teach at si ling before. i am not nervous but i haven done a thing cause there is no scrip for us to remember.yesterday i did not update cause i have something on.haha.i have nothing to update cause i have tonnes of homework to be done by Friday. sian. -_-" so stress full. well patience is the key.

every Monday is a sian day for me cause on that day we need to stay back until 6pm. boring! just now i have my individual photo shoot. i think is for the year book.nothing much to talk about today. so i am going to stop here. but my intention of posting this was to let out my feelings. is almost 1 month and i still can not forget him. i know a lot of things but i just keep it inside my heart. it is a complicated life for me and now i trying to put my life in the right direction. now is all up to me. even though i have friends around me, i still feel something is missing.

today went to my religious class and than went to my cousin house to celebrate my grandfather birthday. he is 74 years old. i have been wondering how i will look like once i reach that age. haha. after celebrating, i went to my aunt new house at tampines. almost all my cousin live near to my grandparents only my family. just now i was so piss off. you see i got new classmates they are only 1 year and i was there for few years. i did not attend the camp because is expensive. my parents could not pay it so they never let me go. so they went to that camp. for the whole day they have been talking about that camp. irritating seh! the teacher ask me and my friends why we did not attend the camp. we tell our reason why lah. than those bitches came in and said we skip our school and we know how to balance between school and religious class. WTF! they said like me and my friends don't know how to balance it.

TO THE BITCHES OUT THERE
YOU ARE NEW THERE SO DON'T ACT LIKE YOU KNOW THE BOYS THERE FOR SO LONG AND DON'T ACT LIKE YOU HAVE BEEN SCHOOLING THERE FOR SO LONG. STUPID DUMB BITCHES!

HAHAHA! that's what happen if me or my friends when the bowling ball went to the side lane. haha. so funny. today i went to meet my friends to go for my remedial. the intention to the remedial was to waste my time. haha. meet my friends at bukit batok to play bowling. this is the first time my friend play bowling. after we went play bowling, we go to mac to have our lunch than head to Chinese garden. the place is very beautiful. around 6+ i went back to my cousin house. meet my parents there and went back home. even though it sound boring but i have fun! let's see what tomorrow going to be.(sorry for my singlish. lazy to write properly)

well today is good Friday. no school but got homework. just now when to aishah house and study. i got back my handphone. i am so happy. most of the time we talk much. haha. when i meet my friends, i will put aside my worksheet and talk. i am so talkative in front of my friends only. hehe.i went back home at 8+. the rest of the plan has been cancel. i don't mind as long as there is time for me to spend time with my friends.

my thoughts
there is still something bothering my thoughts. well i basically need to be patience. with friends around me, i will be so happy and don't even bother to care about my thoughts. now i starting to make a lot of friends. i don't wish to see myself alone when some people out there is having fun and i down here suffering because of___________.

since yesterday i never update my blog because of painting flag for my class. i am in charge for the flag that's the reason why i need to finish it up. the theme is about YOG.

today nothing to said much cause most of the time on Thursday is our relaxing day. cool huh? we even decided on our class t-shirt and what colour.ouh yeah before i forget. just now i was having my English lesson and i forget to bring my newspaper as we need to do journal today. the teacher ask me to write the whole article into my book. i was lazy and i ask my friends where they got the article.they said they went to recycling place and search for it.after my maths lesson, i and my ex went to the recycling place and search for the article. after few minutes later we found the article."kita punya lah jakun. kita happy giler dapat surat khbar tu."

question of the day
Patience? well i don't like people been bully even though they are your friends.for them is a joke but they do not know when is the time to be serious and when is the time to make joke.people who have been bully by their friends, i respect the most because they have been patience even though is hurting them.people tend to forget that there is a limit for a person to be patience. well"life is full of ups and downs" like a person who always remind me.